Beyonce’s documentary finally premiered on Saturday and it was amazing!! The personal and revealing doc revealed her private feelings about her relationship with her father, her mis-carriage, her pregnancy and her love for her husband Jay-Z. She also gave fans an inside look at why she is so successful. It was a beautiful and inspiring peek inside the life of one of the greatest entertainers of our generation.
Here are a few highlights from the documentary (watch it in full below):
1) Beyonce’s father was filmed in a scene holding his new granddaughter, Blue Ivy, as Beyonce worked on salvaging their father-daughter relationship. While discussing the decision to part ways with her father as a manager, Beyonce said:
I’m feeling very empty because of the relationship with my dad. I’m so fragile at this point and I feel like my soul has been tarnished. Life is unpredictable but I feel like I had to move on and not work with my dad. I don’t care if I don’t sell one record. It’s bigger than the record, it’s bigger than my career. I think one of the biggest reasons I felt like it was time for me to manage myself is because at some point, you need your support system and you need your family. When you are trying to have an every day conversation with your parents, you have to talk about scheduling, you have to talk about your album, performing and touring. It’s just too stressful and it affects your relationship. I needed boundaries and I think my dad needed boundaries. It’s really easy to get confused with this world that’s your job that you live and breathe all day every day and you don’t know when to turn it off. You need a break. I needed a break. I needed my dad. [When asked: Did you get your dad back?] No. It was hard. I had to sacrifice my relationship with my dad. It was a stressful, sad, difficult time but I had to let go.
Later in the film, while being stressed out over an upcoming performance, Beyonce says:
I think I realized that business and being polite, doesn’t match. You can be fair but me being polite was not me being fair to myself. Now, I’m learning how political things are and a lot of the crazy things [my father did] was necessary.
On Her relationship with Jay-Z, she said:
I think me marrying a musician is a coincidence. We connected because we both perform and have similar lifestyles but we connected on a spiritual level and he just so happened to be a musician. He’s taught me so much about being an artist. Not a musician but an artist. And fighting for what I believe and having my standards. He doesn’t compromise his art. I used to be afraid of people thinking I was too difficult or too critical but I don’t care about that anymore as long as it is the right reasons, and I learned that from him.
I just pray that Jay and I stay a team because right now we are really connected and are really communicating well and completely understand each other. This baby has made me love him more than I thought I could love another human being. I love him so much. We almost feel like one, I just don’t know how to describe it. I hope I remember this when the baby comes, and it gets tough because it’s going to be an adjustment. This feeling is so beautiful. It’s every woman’s dream to feel this way about someone.
There was also footage of Jay-Z and Beyonce on his birthday, December 4, 2006, and she said to him:
This is nothing compared to what you’ve done for me and not only me, but everybody here. You’ve taught me so many things. I was 20 years old when we first started dating. You taught me how to be a woman, you taught me how to be a friend, you’ve given me so much in life and this is not enough. It’s not enough that I can give you. I just want you to be happy and every year I am even more in love with you. And I want to spend every day of my life with you. Happy Birthday and I thank God for you every day.
3) Since the rumors surrounding her pregnancy has been such a big deal in the press, Beyonce spent a good deal of the film talking about her pregnancy while showing off her growing baby bump.
Beyonce on her pregnancy
Being pregnant was very much like falling in love. You are so open. You are so over-joyed. There is no words that can express having a baby growing inside of you so of course you want to scream it out and tell everyone but you just have to make sure everything is safe, so I had to hide something that was the best thing in my life. I was scared to make plans but I remember going to the doctor and the doctor said, “Listen, you have to let it go. You’re healthy and if this baby is supposed to be here, it’s going to be here. You don’t need to be thinking about it. Go do everything that you’ve been doing and you’ll be fine.”
Beyonce on her miscarriage
I think people have an idea in their heads about entertainers and celebrities. I think they feel like their lives are so perfect and it’s really hard to go through painful experiences in the public eye because it’s hard to get closure. About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time and I heard the heartbeat which is the most beautiful music that I’ve heard in my entire life. And it happens when you hear the heartbeat because it lets you know that there is life inside of you. I picked out names, I envisioned what my child would be like. I was feeling maternal, my first child with the man that I love. I flew back to New York to get my checkup and no heartbeat. Literally the week before, I went to the doctor and everything was fine, but there was no heartbeat. When I went into the studio, I wrote the saddest song I ever written in my life. And it was actually the first song I wrote for my album. It was the best form of therapy for me because it was the saddest thing I’ve ever went through.
Beyonce on the surrogate rumors
There is actually a lot of people that believes this rumor and it’s crazy. I guess there are some crazy celebrities in this world so we get a bad rep but to think that I would be able to be that vain. I respect mothers and women so much and to be able to experience bringing a child into this world. If you are lucky and fortunate enough to experience that, I would never ever take that for granted. It is the most powerful thing you can ever do in your life. And especially after losing a child, the pain and trauma from that, it just makes it mean so much more to get an opportunity to bring life into the world. It’s something that you have to respect. People should have boundaries, there is certain things you shouldn’t play around with and a child, you don’t play around with that.
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